Adventure.

hello world....
today at 2.25AM in the morning i just found out something.
i found out that one of my friend was pregnant.
oh wait, better yet, she just gave birth a few days ago..

i wasnt so sure about the this news.
a couple days back she chat with me.
asking for my other friend's no. and unfortunately.
my hp wasnt with me. i was at a chalet and forgot to bring my phone.
i ask my dad to bring along my phone but by the time.
i think i totally forgot about my friend who ask for my other friends no.

well at that chat conv. i rmb asking her whre is she.
she was at KK hospital. i ask why she was there.
she said something about labour. at that time.
i didnt hear clearly, so i was like ouh..ok.
den today i saw her update a photo of her with the hospital shirt.

ppl comment her about how was she and has she given birth.
i was abit confuse for awhile. thinking maybe they're joking or something.
den the last conv with her struck me.
labour + KKH + her at hospital + the photo comments.
okayy... so i check a few photos of hers.
trying to find one with evidence that she was pregnant.
and wow! did i find something.

i wasnt close with her after we got separated to diff class after sec 3.
but we do smile and talk once in a while.
still casual friends tho.. but not so close like the previous time.
and that time, there are alot of happening with her.
trust me. i can go on as long.. she was on of my close friends at the beginning.
we were same classmates for 3 years.
and i remember the first day of school during sec 1.
she was the first girl who ask me if we should eat tgt during recess.
haha. cute~ those were the days,
things change ppl change so we drifted apart.
somehow i hope she is doing fine.
i bet she had a rough time this few months and coming month.
if only i knew what she was going thru, i would at least ask how's she's doing once in a while.
right noe i feel really bad that i cant even ask how is she for the past few month.
i hope she and her baby is doing okay.
i can believe it takes me this long to know.

at the same time im pissed that even my closest friends during secondary school.
the ones who i hang out the last year at secondary school.
those people i effing trust cant even update me about all this.
so much for those kind of friends.

eu guys were the one i hang out at our last months in school.
the people i CHOSE to be with when i took my result.
the ones that we choose to make a "pack" when we take our result
we would talk or see no one else but us.
the ones who i was with in the girls toilet revealing each other final results in sec sch.
the first two FRIENDS who i shared my result with.

I AM SORRY that, that day may not be the happiest day of ur lives.
I AM SORRY that, your result wernt what you expected.
I AM SORRY that, my result was better than yours.
I AM SORRY that, you were unable to live ur dreams.
I AM SORRY that, all of us cant be at the same sch like we planned to.
I AM SORRY that, im the only one that get into TP,our dream sch.
I AM SORRY that, for whatever shit i did to you people.

but after that day.. a few week or months or so.
i know we drifted apart. i can feel it.
no it doesnt make me feel better.
i know i have new friends. but believe me when i say.
i did bust my ass to at least make an reunion or outing.
but somehow you were uncontactable,unavailable,busy or whatever.
seriously.it may not be often but there were TIMES when i did those.
and reason i get is, no money, i got other plans. im lazy.
i dun give a shit if eu dun have money.
if dun have time, reschedule or something.
make an initiative to at least have a plan outing.
but NOOOOOOOO...
probably you just dun give a fucking damn.
it not that hard you know.
you have my hp no, my twitter, my FB, my email.
anyway possible to just come up to say hi or anything.

i would have appreciate you would update on me on how eu've been.
even if eu think i dun care. i wil reply you. trust me i will.
somehow you people dun even give a damn.
a couple of time i do think to much.
and those thoughts include if i've made the right choice.
but i never regret.
if wasnt for that choice, i would have known what kind of friends i had.
i am sooo sick and tired of this kind of bullshit.
same thing keeps happening to me.
at first all nice and cuddly but when time passes..
i believe everyone change.
only depends how much.
and those people i knew.
they sure change alot.
but only some stays the same.
and right now, i can only think of one person.
and its neither those chose to be with. or chose not to be with.
this person have been just sticking around for so long.
and realise few months back that that person is the one and only true friends i will ever have.
THE ONLY ONE!

if i were a mean person, i just dont give a damn about you people.
get on with my life.
plus, my family move far far far far FAR away from you people.
so its no problem to me.
so when eu have any problem...
OH WAIT, i'll be the last person you would think of to even contact right.
so why bother....
have a good long life.. seriously. this may be the only wish you'll get.