no, i am not planning to commit suicide.

although i would be lying if i never thought of it.

but no.. not now. however....

i am on the edge of a cliff of giving up on school.

i seriously have no interest anymore.

zero! nada! non! zilch!

i just can't take the suffering any longer.

i just can't go through this madness of this school & course.

i have lost interest in design. seriously.

my mind blank out when i start to think about ideas.

i always feel tired when it comes to going for school.

i feel like i am such a loner when i go to school.

this course makes me hate what i use to love.

it sucks to have no friends in school.

it sucks even more when you don't even like what you are studying.

don't tell me not to give up cox i'm almost on the way to.

if you are able to study a subject with no interest and no friends.

let me know how did it go and tell me your secret.

continuing this just for my parent's sake is wrong.

i just don't want to disappoint them. i don't have the heart to.

but sometimes they themselves leave me no choice.

i better think of a back-up plan for my future.

its my future after all, not theirs..

i can't see myself as a designer or what not~

what will i do next..??

i am thinking of baking.. food..

or maybe theater like my sissy?

something that i will be able to look forward to when learning.

maybe with kids?! i loved that!

i may not be able to continue this course in this school anymore.

poly is not as pleasant and fun as it seems when you're in secondary school.

it may seems so at first but once everyone show their true colors.

then you'll be slapped by reality.

to Mom & Dad, your message is at 'This is where it all started'.....