[My School Results]

hey y'all, just few hours ago, i checked my results.

well not, intentionally.

i didn't knew results were out, no one informed me.

so there goes two years worth of education & money spent.

When i saw the result, i wasn't even sad.

it was expected from all the skipping school

& didn't so work at all.

i felt relieved & somehow happier.

when actually i should feel sad & frustrated or scared.

so now i got REMOVED from the course.

Here's my story, this is not to show how much of a failure i am.

or how bad my result was.

this is just the reality.

& let whoever reading this my story,

& how you can learn from it.

it's all started when i got my O level results.

i was contented when i got my result,

however i wish i could do it better.

so at the age of 17, they somehow made us choose what path we want.

at that age may be reasonable for some.

but after these few year,

i realize that children should be prepared about their future.

when i was a kid, i wanted to be a teacher,

as a teen i wanted to be a fashion designer.

but when i got my result,

i got Product & Industrial Design.

the thing is, at that point of time, i wanted so many things.

but what i want was unreachable due to my results

or the course was unavailable.

so how i choose the schools after my result was,

firstly, we had like 12 choices?

the 1st 4 choices i choose courses i really wanted,

regardless of the points needed to enter.

the next four will be something i would definitely could get in

and possibly graduate with some interest in it.

last 4 was just a back up plan.

so i got the first choice from my 'definitely could get in' choices.

at first i was like, "ok, why not?"

plus, in secondary school, i took DNT,

something that has to do with the course somehow.

so my thinking was that, if i could excel during my secondary school,

i'm sure to do the same during this course.

OH-BOY i was WRONG!

and through the years, i got least interested in the course.

however, they have this modules [classes] that is out of the course subject,

& for those module, i tend to love it.

& do well in it too

other than that, i lost interest with that & my grade shows it.

and so does my conduct.

i start skipping school during year 2,

which was from last year.

my conduct, i should say it was very bad.

i'm like THE BOSS.

go to school when i want to.

despite several warnings, i still skipped school.

that results a major drop in my grades.

i just don't see myself as a product or industrial designer.

not even at the beginning.

when i started i thought at least it will grew in me over the years.

but it has not.

it does the opposite.

probably it was my mistake that i didn't knew what i wanted at that time.

& that i never explore more grounds on what i could have done.

& then my sis introduce to me to theater,

that is by far the best thing she have ever done for me.

i know then i wanted my future to have to do with entertainment industry.

my sis offers me a job with some theater company as a dresser.

i worked backstage,

and seeing all the works and the set ups,

i was in awe.

from then on, i loved theater.

idk how or why.

it just clicked.

it may seems i'm just copying my sis.

but this is something i can see myself do in the future.

so right now, its not the end.

i am pulling myself back up and begin a new chapter.

i have plans what to do next.

& i've yet to let my parents know.

hopefully soon,

i should talk to them & convince them about me plan.

so all i want to project it that, know what you want.

explore the possibilities & opportunities.

don't be too safe.

try new things, you might end up loving it.

& don't give up.

even if you fail doesn't mean you're a failure.

it just mean you have not succeed yet.

it does takes time, but i'm sure it will be all worth it~

if all goes well with my next plan,

then it will be good.

i don't mind another 3 years of school,

i'm in no rush to start adulthood & work.

i wanna take time & enjoy young life while i can.

& so should you~