Eventhough I'm at work, I do make an effort. Thanks to my guys at work & especially bf that inspire me to start this. 

I don't come from a religious family. My parents use to send me to religious classes but at that time, I wasn't into it because all I could think of is how hectic my schedule is & how tired I was. My family don't do practices at home so I wasn't disciplined (religious wise). But my circle of friends taught me a lot. Eventhough I don't do any religious classes for few years now, my friends do teaches a thing or two once in a while without them knowing. Thus, I am very blessed with this people that I chose to be with. 

This may not be a big thing to some. But it is to me. No one teaches me how to pray. At first i was embarrased how my younger cousins are much more educated than I am in terms of our religion. Thats was a stepping stone, a wake up call. Then when my collegues start praying at work & I was left out because I don't even know how. 

Yes, I am an adult & yet to know all this things. But its never to late to start. My parents do encourage me at time. But they usually talk the talk. They themselves don't show some example as a leader. But I don't blame them. It is up to individuality of how you want to live your life & if you want to practice all this. 

As soon as that. I wanna become a better person & be closer to HIM. I started reading books & remembering the prayers. Within few days I fed myself with the basics once again. Just few days I'm able to remember most of it. But the best thing is that, it's not really that tough. Since I use to go to religious classes few years ago. Things that I learned before, I could actually recall it without me knowing that I even know such knowledge. So those classes wasn't such a waste afterall~

I am not implying that I am a good person. I just wanna be a better person, a better muslim. I do make mistakes & I make it in future. No ones perfect. But adding this into my lifestyle is just something to better myself. 

I won't suddenly will wear a hijab and go for religious classes and be very religious all of a sudden. I'm taking this slow. Same as bf, he too wanna be a better person. I do encourage him to be. But I don't want to be one of those people who only talk the talk. Why should he listens to me if I myself don't practice it? True?

I don't want people to think that, oh.. I suddenly start praying. I'm gonna be a goodie good kid. wearing hijab and encourage people to join me. No. I wish I would be but no. I'm no good person. I know even with this practices, I'm sure to make sins as I'm use to. & I'm not gonna force anyone to do the same. No one forced me. It was my own initiative to start all this & that is how other people should too. Using their own initiative and not because of someone or something else. However, someday. Someday I will start wearing hijab and go for religious classes once again when I'm ready. 

It just feels good that I'm enable myself to be closer to HIM. Its just the best feeling ever..