I thought i would be watching mockingjay on my own this year. This movie was actually a promise. It meant something more than a movie or a story. It reminds me of what i had gone through. This movoe was something meaningful to me and a certain someone. Someone who i'd love but stopped loving him because he wasn't true to himself or to me. 

It started frm the book i read. Which i was into so much and interested way before i knew there was a movie gonna show base on the book. This was the first topic that we shared on our first comversation. Our first fight/debate about how good the movie was. How i turn him into a fan. Which i'm not sure he's doing it for real or faking it just for me. This story explains what i've gone through. Felt what i feel. Understanding everything thats happening. 

From Hunger Games. To Catching Fire. To Mockingjay. I read the book. I fall in love with the story and the character. Hoping to find me very own Peeta Mellark. Someone who loves me from the beginning and would do anything to protect me even if i hurt him. Someone who doesnt give up one me and always there for me when i need him.

I thought i found it. I thought despite everything. It would be worth it. The promises we made. The conversation we had. All were empty words. How i was led to believe that eventhough he was right for me, i thought he would be different. ( quote from 'Another Cinderella Story' ) Then it all came to me that he wasnt my Peeta. Never to begin with. And it all came crashing down on me when i got my heart broken the second time from the same guy that i thought deserve my love. 

I gotta say. I cried more on this movie than when i watched Fault in our stars. This will always be something dearly to me. And Josh Hutcherson. Who plays Peeta Mellark. Is someone who i would want to date. Someone down to earth. Seeing all his interviews and his talent. He may not look like Zac Efron or Liam Hemsworth (who plays Gale). But i love his personality and how he is so real as himself off screen. Someday.. i will meet my Peeta Mellark.  Girls want their Prince Charming. Someone who feel in love with them because they cant help themselves to stand up for anything. I want a Peeta Mellark, who adores me from far and knows my independence and yet always one step behind guiding me in case i slipped. Someone who loves me more than i love myself. That is someone i would & will marry someday. In shaa Allah ❤

Stay with me. 

Always..