Hello Earthlings!

Yesterday went on a date, by far the best date ever since my last relationship. This is the first time I admit it was a date before the guy think so. I like him, so very much but we only knew each other few days ago. On the 26th? or 25th? We finally met yesterday on the 28th. This guy by far couldn't be more perfect. At the same time I'm trying to be cautious, maybe this guy is too good to be true. I'm just enjoying every moment I have now before it last. I don't know how or why but just click instantly. I'm not easily click with people or human beings in general. This guy have ways with word and with me. He tolerates my bimbo moment and my nonsense. I can't be anymore comfortable with this guy, it's like I've know him long enough to literally keep biting him. Big flaw of mine, I love to bite people and this guy lets me without being grossed out or something. If wasn't for his effort to get to know me, I wouldn't be in this situation.

He make me feel like I never felt for some time. Then again, this happens before. It's always good in the beginning. I just hope this last long. Long enough for me to know him very well and find more flaws about him. I just can't stand how he can be so perfect to me despite the flaws he has now. The goods overrun the bad or maybe I'm use to see the goodness in people rather than the bad? I have mix feelings about this. I'm happy as fuck knowing him, I can't stop thinking about this smart ass. I don't know what but he is just perfect.

What are the chances, the day before I ever chat with him, I had a chat with one of my colleagues about this. About who will I date next. She said go for non-local and older, like 10 years older at least. The kind of guy who to be sure, be able to take care of you in future. White people specifically. I agree, I do have a thing for white people, I'm influenced by American culture anyways. Watched too much American dramas and reality show etc etc... Then that very night, this guy came and chat with me, we chatted for the longest time in this app called MeowChat. Yes, I like to chat online. Intention just to make friends all over the world. I made friends with this guy from Germany, we talked about his relationship problems and we became friends from then on. You now that feeling when you help someone to feel better even if you don't know them? It's such a great feeling because you don't want anyone to feel alone. Then I met this guy from Turkey, he was interested in me  but I wasn't much because he's like halfway across the world. Not that I don't believe in long distant relationship but I've yet to have met him. So yea, I met a few couple of friends and guys in there but none like this guy I just met. NONE.

I never felt this way before. Being so comfortable with a person so fast. Even with my ex, i didn't get that comfortable with him that fast in the beginning. Probably cox there was complications at the beginning. I don't know why I get myself into that mess but I end up falling in love with him anyway which in the end doesn't even work out. Which I'm glad. Now I've met this 23 year old guy who planned out his future already and lovable and sweet as fuck and so accepting. I don't wanna fall for him so fast, I'm so afraid of getting hurt but at the same time I don't wanna hold back if he really feels the same way. I just couldn't know how he really feels. He told me he likes me too and so sincere about it but some people are unpredictable. I have trust issues too. I wanna trust him but I hold it back a little just so if it didn't end up the way I wish to, then it will hurt real bad. That will suck real bad. So far, he's just too perfect. Him wearing that CD uniform just kills me sometimes, if he ever meet me with that, I think I'll die inside. Me and my fetish for guys in uniform, specifically CD uniform. Thanks to my dad. He's the reason I love guys in uniform. He's such a hero and a gentlemen. This guy is as close as it gets. He doesn't smoke or drink or club. He's an animal lover too.
Where can I find this kind of human beings now? Rare alright, especially in guys. I hope he's true to what he say he is. I'll be disappointed if he lies about something he's not. Just to impress me but so far, he's just too good to be true. Just too good....

So much for finding a for some foreign guy who is 10 years older than me. Well, this guy is mix blood anyway.. hahaha. Maybe I just prefer guys who are mix. Chinese Malay , now Indian Muslim. He's a Muslim, that won't be an issue if I ever to get serious with him. I really like this guy. I just hope think things goes well. I'll wake up in the middle of the night and smile by myself,  thinking about him. That's how happy I am to finally meet someone as perfect as him but again, things could go wrong. I just don't wanna think about that. I just wanna enjoy the moment as long as I could! I really like this smart ass, I just hope things work out this time round for my love life...