I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted. Why do they change? The person I took a chance with eventually just fades away. So tired of thinking weather or not, this and that. I'm just done. Done trying, done figuring out. Nothing I can do will bring back how it was before. No matter how much I try to understand them. I can never understand them. Just have to make whats best with what I have. May Allah strengthen me in every way he can. Cox I need Him the most right now. I still believe in Him. Can only rely on Him to give what's best for me. May he calm my mind and my heart from this again. Just save whats left in me. Please... I'm just not myself these days. I'm turning back to her again. Draining herself, just lost in her own world. I thought this won't happen again.. I wish it didn't. But I took a chance, I knew what I get myself into. Maybe its worth it in a long run or just another history repeating itself. Either way, I'm just gonna stick around and see how far I can go this time. Cox I want this to work. I don't wanna go through this phase again and again if every guy will be the same. If this is it. This is it then... It doesn't matter what I do or say. It's the same. No way it's gonna be like how I like it before. Honeymoon period is done. Its over. It can never be consistent. It can never be true. If this is what I get. Then I should just accept it.