So close but yet it not surprising. Close to 3 months. I've observed. I've kept quiet. I gave in. I try to understand ur needs. Only to realize what is not. Whatever you say, you're proving me right. I see who's & what's ur priority. I see who i am to you. I see and feel who i am to you. Despite multiple convincing to myself. Sometimes i just reach to the point that this just it. Actions speaks louder than word. Yes it is. If only you were in my shoes. If only u get to feel what i feel and put through what i've been put through. Yet trying to think positive. Forgive every little things u're sorry for. But sorry doesnt mean anything if you're just gonna do it again. I know that. But i always try to believe you were different somehow. I did. If only i got the guts to treat you the way you treat me but i cant. That makes me twice as bad as u. I always believe that if give good. You'll receive good. Everytime i psych myself out and giving excuses to ur actions so i could forgive you and try again. But you and everyone else always takes things for granted. Its your lost. Not mine. I knw i treat u well. Better than you deserve cox you're worth it. I agree we're different in so many ways. How we handle stuff and how we see things. Thats good cox we have 2 side of opinion. But i always feel one sided. I understand the things u need and what u dont need. But you dont with mine. Cox im always over reacting or drama or just overthinking it. I accept that. But can u accept things u are if i told u? Could u? I couldnt cox i can never confront anyone because i choose to see only good every individual that i really care about.

I hate this. I hate how someone can make u like them then just take you for granted. Then its hard a decision, weather to stay to work on things or just leave cox you feel this is a never ending thing. So many reasons to leave but just because of one reason make you stay. That reason is just the feeling you have towards a person. Just one stupid reason, you'll stay and endure the shit you're being put through. Thats relationship for you. if i can find someone who put twice the effort i give, i'll definitely wont leave him no doubt.