The reason you gave me was totally the same reason i thought of when i wanted to ended it. But i had another person's perspective and i tried. As long as we both wanted to. I will try. But since one of us basically just don't want it anymore, no point staying or fight for it. Things can't be forced. One way or another, you sure find some things that couldn't work out between us. We are too different. I agree. We are not suited. Maybe. We are not compatible, possibly. One thing i learn about love. If you want it, nothing else matters. If you're unsure what is it or afraid of it, you find every excuse in the book to not have to think about it.

Fine. This time you win. We only dated 5 months. Known each other for like 6 months? Nothing much to be heartbroken about. I did fall for you but nothing really make me fall hard and in love with you because i know you have doubts. I am a woman, no matter how stupid i can be. I am not that naive. The little thing you did or did not do, does show me how you really feel. But i believe you need time to get to know someone and finally feel something. So i follow with the flow. I didn't change myself. I did not adapt to your lifestyle. Fuck you for thinking I'm going all the way for you.

1, i am not like you. No matter how shitty you treated me doesn't mean I'm gonna treat you the same way. Yes, I am too nice because i thought everyone should be treated nicely unless they give me reasons not to.

2, i believed while you are just lying to me or to yourself. Either way. Same shit.

3, i love my life the way it was before and after i met you. People come and go. I adjust a few thinga to suit what is right. Take a chance. Take a risk whenever i want to. Not for anyone but myself.

4, fuck you and your "too nice & deserve better"  damn right i do. I stayed not cause i love to hurt myself but to take a chance.

5, I've ways hated your guts and your logical thinking. Fuck off. Not everything have to be logically explained you emotional numb fuck.

6, yes, you are getting fatter. So am i. But i know i do. You just need to lower down ur ego and ur confidence so that you can catch up with your reality.

7, sometimes you're a jackass with your friends. I'm sure they are use to it. But still. Your fucking friends are not your fucking dog bitch. Know the fucking limits.

8, you have the characteristics of your dad. Won't be surprise if you end up like him when you grow up. Lol. Not my problem anymore.

9, you are such a sweet talker liar fucktard. But i forgive you from those lies you said and did. You were not the person i thought i liked, yet i stayed on to know the real you. Which turns out not so bad cause despite everything, quite glad i dont have to worry about my future with you anymore.

10, you are smart but also stupid in so many ways i cant explain in one paragtaph.

Lastly. 11, you're a great guy overall. It's true you not the guy i wish to have. But i try to make the best with what i got.

I don't geddit when guys say I'm too nice or deserve better. What you guys want. A crazy ass gold digger bitch? Hahahahaa. But i am not all disappointed. Just upset. Despite everything we try to do, it didnt work out.

Honestly though, doesn't affect me much cox me knowing myself. I have lost interest in you. I thought it might be a phase or maybe i really did lost interest. I start liking and admiring and crushing on other guys. God knows..  Even dream of them. But because i still have that little feelings left to save, i thought it might be good someday for sticking around. Guess not. Well now I won't feel so bad afterall. Yea, people keep saying I'm too nice. But i can be a bitch sometimes.. Sometime i feel guilty of my actions, sometimes they just give me reasons not to. Oh wells.

So.....  Let me restart.....